200709191012聆聽心的聲音
最近心很亂
老公在工作上受委屈
因為制度不合理，有苦好不容易說出來了
卻得不到回應，只有在原點打轉，
轉得好累，累到萬念俱灰
甚至想放棄理想...
但是要離開一個工作超過十年的地方
談何容易?
昨天颱風來襲，狂風暴雨
難得天上掉下一個喘息的機會
我跟老公分享了一首我很愛的詩:
THE JOURNEY
by Mary Oliver
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice--
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do--
determined to save
the only life you could save.
第一次讀這首詩
全身起了雞皮疙瘩
甚至有揪心的感覺
好像要牽著自己的心 穿過一道無形的牆
展開新生活
任何改變都會面對阻力
特別是自己周圍的人
總會提出建議
因為會不安 會害怕 不想改變現況
所以我們往往被這些聲音綁住 無法動彈
這些聲音會蓋住自己內心的聲音
但是在風雨與喧嘩之間
還是可以找到寧靜
颱風眼裡的寧靜
也許只是短暫的一刻
但是在那一刻 一切昭然若揭
如果聽到了自己的聲音
就要聆聽自己的聲音
而且要走自己的路
這是每一個人責無旁貸的任務
每一個人都要為自己的生命負責
人到中年 最容易有這種體悟
因為時候不早了...
it was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen branches and stones.
(已經晚了
夠晚了, 一夜的狂風驟雨
一地的落葉與落石)
為什麼是 狂野的夜 wild night?
改變往往是狂野的 是危險的
但是還是要勇敢的向前走
因為真金不怕火煉
只要堅持下去
一切的混亂 恐懼 不確定 都會沉澱下來
but little by little
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own...
眾聲喧嘩之後
總會聽到自己的聲音
而這個聲音會伴著你
深入這個世界
找到自己的聲音
絕對不是遁世的離群索居
而是在這個世界上找到自己的歸屬
才能充分投入
熱情的
活著
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